chats in my notes: my reality as a graduate - uncut
ok so this blogpost literally has come out of nowhere although I have been debating talking about the feeling of finally finishing my undergrad forever. I felt sad yesterday and decided to write all my feelings in my notes app on my iPhone, it helped me a lot and I just decided to share it with you gals because I want to be real and share my thoughts with others who might feel the same now they are finished university.
To be honest, I still haven't come to terms with it.
All I can say is, it has been a huge shock to the system the last few weeks. During the summer it never hit me but as soon as I seen people heading out for freshers and their back in college snaps it was like I walked straight into a clear glass door haha sorry that is dramatic but it's true.
The most shocking part of freedom from college was the move back home to Monaghan. I was fully preparing myself for heading back up to Maynooth this year but of course that wasn't happening now that I have a full time job. At the minute, I live at home in the countryside surrounded by fields upon fields. It's a crazy transition going back to your childhood environment in your 20's when all you have known the past three years is independent living and college routine. Living at home is great, yes free rent and food but I miss freely going places because it's not fun in rural area where you physically need a car to get from A to B. (btw I am currently working extremely hard to get my test and hopefully soon I will have my full licence hehe, just another 20 lessons to go)
In my opinion, my experience of living away from home really helped me to grow and create independence I never thought I would ever establish before moving to Maynooth in 2016. Back story, growing up I was an extremely anxious person, even about little things for example walking by myself or taking the bus on my own. It's still something I struggle with but I am trying to push myself everyday to reach outside my comfort zone and go against my inner fear that realistically shouldn't be there but it's just a part of me and my thoughts. I remember my mam dropping me off at campus in first year and balling for the first couple of weeks in bed because I missed my home comforts and now looking back it's so weird to think about that. I was only 19 and obviously as you get older it is easier to adjust and get on with things in life.
It's funny now I have a full time job in an area I absolutely adore and I have gained amazing experience in the space of just 4 months immersed in marketing life. It's still hard for me to come to terms with the end of my time at University, even though around 6 months ago I was happy and felt kind of ready to leave.
The message of this blogpost is embrace University. Take the good with the bad, Like everything we face in life there is hard times and especially in final year it is difficult to see the end of the chapter. Believe me university was a place I really became my 'own' person. It taught me more life lessons about friendship, hard work and general life. It also created amazing opportunities for me through the people I met and activities I was involved in after hours.
I am realising that it's ok to feel down about the end. It was the best years to date but I am definitely ready to create more years just like that in the future.
To be honest, I still haven't come to terms with it.
All I can say is, it has been a huge shock to the system the last few weeks. During the summer it never hit me but as soon as I seen people heading out for freshers and their back in college snaps it was like I walked straight into a clear glass door haha sorry that is dramatic but it's true.
The most shocking part of freedom from college was the move back home to Monaghan. I was fully preparing myself for heading back up to Maynooth this year but of course that wasn't happening now that I have a full time job. At the minute, I live at home in the countryside surrounded by fields upon fields. It's a crazy transition going back to your childhood environment in your 20's when all you have known the past three years is independent living and college routine. Living at home is great, yes free rent and food but I miss freely going places because it's not fun in rural area where you physically need a car to get from A to B. (btw I am currently working extremely hard to get my test and hopefully soon I will have my full licence hehe, just another 20 lessons to go)
In my opinion, my experience of living away from home really helped me to grow and create independence I never thought I would ever establish before moving to Maynooth in 2016. Back story, growing up I was an extremely anxious person, even about little things for example walking by myself or taking the bus on my own. It's still something I struggle with but I am trying to push myself everyday to reach outside my comfort zone and go against my inner fear that realistically shouldn't be there but it's just a part of me and my thoughts. I remember my mam dropping me off at campus in first year and balling for the first couple of weeks in bed because I missed my home comforts and now looking back it's so weird to think about that. I was only 19 and obviously as you get older it is easier to adjust and get on with things in life.
It's funny now I have a full time job in an area I absolutely adore and I have gained amazing experience in the space of just 4 months immersed in marketing life. It's still hard for me to come to terms with the end of my time at University, even though around 6 months ago I was happy and felt kind of ready to leave.
The message of this blogpost is embrace University. Take the good with the bad, Like everything we face in life there is hard times and especially in final year it is difficult to see the end of the chapter. Believe me university was a place I really became my 'own' person. It taught me more life lessons about friendship, hard work and general life. It also created amazing opportunities for me through the people I met and activities I was involved in after hours.
I am realising that it's ok to feel down about the end. It was the best years to date but I am definitely ready to create more years just like that in the future.
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